three insights

here i'm going to write about three insights i have had lately--two of them today. so somehow or other, there has been a month break since i last wrote, and i guess that's fine. today's insights will make it worth it. the order will be shelter, math, and music.

shelter. it occurred to me yesterday why we have shelter (by we i mean humans generally, but perhaps more specifically, people living in the same area as me). we have it to keep us warm when it's cold, cool when it's hot, protected from insects, and in the case of our homes, perhaps a little bit of protection from people or at least privacy. but on a day like yesterday, or today for that matter, none of those reasons work. the only reason someone would be inside are the wrong reasons--to get work done and be productive, or something like that. so i couldn't quite handle that. i went outside. i've been spending a lot of time outside lately--just about as much as i can actually. and i love it.

math. i was a math major in college. i took 14 math courses (that means 12 beyond calc2). i did a lot of math, and i liked it well enough. i kind of tired of it, and i do much less of it lately. but this evening i had a conversation with my friend, and i asked him how many blog posts he had written lately. he said he was half done with three. so i said he'd done one and a half then. and we both agreed that wasn't really the case. and then i said that the main problem with multiplication is that it doesn't work in real life. consider this real life example. let's say you have a half of a cat. and another three half-cats. you really don't have two cats, no matter what your elementary school teacher said. so i guess we should just throw that whole math thing out the winder (i can't believe that i wasted a third of my course slots in college).

last, this is an amazing song. i should say that i found out about the song on by looking at a message a friend left for another friend on facebook. but both my brother and i listened to it 15-20 times within the first couple days of having the song. that's the sign of a pretty good song.

fidelity by regina spektor

I never loved nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost in the sounds
Right here in my mind
All of these voices
I hear in my mind
All of these words
I hear in my mind
All of this music
And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my ha-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-eart
And it breaks my ha-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-eart

Suppose I never ever met you
Suppose we never fell in love
Suppose I never ever let you
Kiss me so sweet
And so so-o-oft

Suppose I never ever saw you
Suppose I never ever called
Suppose I kept on singing love songs
Just to break my own fall

Just to break my fa-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-all
Just to break my fa-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-all
Just to break my fa-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-all
Break my fall
Break my fall

All my friends say that, of course, it's gonna get better
gonna get better better better better better better better better better better

I never loved nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost in the sounds
I hear in my mind
All of these voices
I hear in my mind
All of these words
I hear in my mind
All of this music

And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart

I hear in my mind
All of these voices
I hear in my mind
All of these words
I hear in my mind
All of this music
And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart.
And it breaks my ha-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-eart
And it breaks my ha-aah-aah-aah-aah-eart
And it breaks my ha-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-eart
And it breaks my heart
Breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart.
And it breaks my heart.
And it breaks my heart.